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Precious by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Precious

I had reached my point of no return The last straw had snapped I was ready for a change To drop the dice and see what lie in my hands I was ready to face the music and quite The trip was over but I need a few days of rest So lingered int city of sin for day or two The plan was just to relax do a photo shoot go to the outdoor range A suggestion was made to stop at magic shop He had said vaguely that was someone I should met one of us I shrugged though what ever and said fuck sure we got there . . . I didn't think I 'd fine true love I was done with love It been about two since my last serious relationship I was finally getting to the point wh

Transparency by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Transparency

Transparency LAZY Most days that me in a nut shell I'm not the kind of girl to do her hair or wear make up I've been very girly I've always been honest and transparent I've never been one to put more energy in relationship I don't care if you got dark for month at time How can I when I do the same time All my life I wanted someone to love Fall in love with someone who makes love easy I want some who puts as much energy as I do into an relationship Which most is of the time is none It an honor for to tell someone when I'm in town I don't think you desperate if hit me I don't care if hit me up or not In my book where friends Friends tell each

Acceptable Terrorism by kallia-goldenwings, literature

Meaningless Moments by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Meaningless Moments

What was this world coming to There was moment a our generation when shared certain life experiences We all remember growing up as kids Having a job as teenager Seeking out when we where grounded Going to a school dance Spending a night at drive-in with our flavor of the week Catching a movie with out buddies Barfing in the bushes after drinking all night hanging out with our friends Sitting in the bleachers at school making out with our sweetheart Receiving flowers in homeroom on valentine's day Having a brick flip cell phone at 16 or 30 Flash forward 20 years Modern life experiences Sending emails to our best friends Having sex 12 Being c

Rainbow by kallia-goldenwings, literature

Chapter two by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Chapter two

I'd like to say Rayna came back the next day however she didn't. It would be a week before I see either her or her father again. I was sure she would come by again I didn't expect her father to come back alone. I was in the kitchen baking bread when I heard a pounding on the front door. I was going to answer it but I was pulling pans of bread out of the stove as the pounding continued coming from the door. I placed the two pans on rag on the counter top and then placed two more in the stove and then went for the door. Only to find her father standing in my kitchen he looked just as I remember him from that night more wolf than man. I found my

Chapter One by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Chapter One

Chapter One Winter was late this year I was in the woods knelling on the ground gathering herbs for my stock pile before winter. When suddenly I felt a chill in the wind and turn to see a pale white skin and bones child standing before me. She was dressed in black smock and her hair stuck out every where with dirt smudged on her face with black hair and blue eyes like the sky above. At first I thought she was a ghost. Then I saw her faint and I stuff the herbs still in my hand into my satchel rose and touched her and in that moment I realized she was real. It was not uncommon for children to find me in the woods or come looking for me. I tho

I had a feeling by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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I had a feeling

My mind was in other place the first time I meet you It would be a year late in the space of one day we reconnect I'd find myself attracted to you It was all just lust at first Months would pass and we'd text back and forth as we got to know each other At the time I was with someone else You were just another toy on the side Even now one than a year later I still can't seem to get that first time With you out of mind It only happened few times during the annual desert trip I had hoped we'd get a chance at another round Only you ended things At time I had a lot going on It didn't bother me that much Though I'll admit I did want to have sex j

Rocket Science by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Rocket Science

I've never seen so many happy faces Though I have wonder is this rocket science? I've lose count of people who I have convinced who don't speak English to follow me Place you metal items here Keys, cell phones, wallets But not your coins or pins Walk though one at time Don't stop in the middle This is not the airport We don't ask that strip or take off you pants or shoes This just secondary screening One can't opt out this is required No offense is meant you just happen to be the next person in line. Oh you have cancer Just let me call over this officer It's fine that don't walk though This machine don't use radiation it a magnetic Please wal

Once Upon A time by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Once Upon A time

I once had though it was this way from sight For me from the being it was love I just had no idea I wanted to deny it I was with another In my mind the rules had been clear In his mind the rules had been clear We just were never on the same page In mind it I just really don't want to date other people for a while In you mind it was I'd only date you I had told you from the start I only do open relationships I never wanted monogamy or to juts be with just one person I wanted to be able to experience all the flavors of ice cream Or have the choice to say one day you know maybe I just want you and not the other flavors You just never give me tha

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Precious by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Transparency by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Transparency

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Chapter One

I had a feeling by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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I had a feeling

Rocket Science by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Rocket Science

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Once Upon A time

These four walls by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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These four walls

I had a life before these four walls I was just like Only some how I ended up here instead I was just trying to be myself I am human just like everyone else One must almost if I here I brave or strong Other might think I 'm a monster Truth is I just could not control myself I let my emotions get the better of me Now I have nothing by time on my hands I don't know what is up or down left or right anymore Every one thinks it's easy to stand still To do nothing The truth is moving is easy One can bury themselves in life Here there is no life to bury your in I know now how I have sinned But there is no going back only forward What want more than

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Necomancer by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Necomancer

In my head Always there Lingering Whispering In my dreams All around me Some would want Them to go away Some would not Understand To me they were My friends I was not reluctant To do as any other Would do I would listen I would speak I commute With them Some would say I was crazy How could I do What they would Ask of me I could not forget What was always There in my head Not of this earth But this earth Was once home All they wanted Was to know That the ones they Love would understand For the dead are part of me Live with me As I pass the message

Last night by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Last night

Last night Last night you died in my arms You never suppose to be in that car It was my night to race for But I was being followed again To the race sight I was late I missed the start They couldn't hold the race any longer for me By then you had already hoped in the car You just barely won that night But then you lost control The car fliped All I could think was that should have been me I was suppose to drive for you that night Would still be alive if I had If I had been on time Had you not flew out the windshield Land in the ground on the side of the road All watcher scatters As the cops were called

Silent screams by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Silent screams

Is the real The creaking of my heart I look around Wanting to scream Only I just can't find my voice What worst to loss my voice or love To loss love because of the power of words The power of society That can some times bring one down That should never be the death of love But a death that can happen just the same That is far too sad Because we think just may be we could have stopped such a death Just like when we see a bird on the way side One who broke all it wings straight Though she can't fly no more Even worst she has not heart to live any more if she can't fly That love a bird And bird can be crashe

Save Me by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Save Me

Haunted by ghosts of the past In my eyes you can see them Hear their pain in my voice Their death is my fault I am not ready To leap of the mountain To dive inside of you But I love Not ready for more But I still can't erase you from my mind Did you ever think they are meant to be in your life If you can't stop thinking about them A dreamless void Made one to many mistakes Hurt one to many people The black sheep I never did get a second chance I went down a path none have before me I listen to the devil I smoke on to many Hoping I could smoke the world away Only to find I hate my self Hate the add

Is age the end by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Is age the end

Life is short. They say you only have a hundred years. So don't have that much. Yet we put some much weight and maybe too much weigth in age In growing one years older. We say we are smarter That we know more But do we With each year we survive do we really know more Do we learn more Or do realize how much more we what to learn Or will never know Can we ever say it matter to be old or young That sun shines because we are another year older The old are the young And the young are old This world takes for us what we should never forget Our

Short Lease by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Short Lease

They tell me life is short The question is how short? To short to know right from wrong Love from hate Life from death Light from dark Pleasure from pain To hold a grude To find true love To find the reason of livivng When life of ours is compared to that of a tree Or the earth But that nit true We are given the time we need it is enough Only it never seems that way No to the heart That feels the pain of lost or the joy of love or the fear of lossing those we love Becasue our time is short.

Little Death by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Little Death

We advance our selves We have machine that do work fo us When was the last you did that piece of work you self When was the last time you dail in your friend number Instead of going to you call list ans selecting their name When was the last time you wrote a story bot hand Instead of typing it As we get more advance We do less work This is good right? A reason to pat our selves on the back Or is this the little death that kills us W have cars that perall park for us What happened to driving a car you self? Will that one day be a dying art? Will know how to do some thing one day be a dying art Will know how some thing works be

Trickery and decpection by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Trickery and decpection

Doomed to repeat the past We simply did just not know any better This may have been the result of being staved Or this may just have been because of the tricky and decepetion Wether create by those before us or already in existence This is the world we were born in This dooms us to repeat the past Again and again So many die of useless causes All becasue we were staved of knowledge The mere stars could not hold enough food to feed all six billion of us Those before us hoped to give us msyters When in truth they given us pain Hate war fear These are trades of the times These are the way for ages we have lived our lives This is

If Only I had known The Truth by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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If Only I had known The Truth

Today was the worst If you told me at the start I would be gone I know it sounds cruel I just can't stand to see you in that bed In that white gown Not knowing for year If the leiongens will get worst Not knowing if you have another attack One more and I lose the man I love I did n't think I would fall for you I can't talk about this to my best friend What do I do I want to take care of you But I never taken care of any one before I don't even really take care of my self My confidence is shot I am ulgy But you see me I can't lose you now I feel as if you always know Know you might go crazy Why did you never say any thing

Hollows by kallia-goldenwings, literature

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Hollows

I stand on hollow grounds Around me are the body of the dead People I know and don't know But all are dead Their tonb stones surround me On in the right says here lives Mark Loved by all But was he really All the while I feel the power Within the power to call them To life again To raise them from their early graves All just so I can know if all really did love them Enough power with in me to raise an army To raise the whole cemetery To raise all the dead from the their graves all around To have them bound to me My blood My circle My sacrifice that calls them to me Of blood Of my own Of the earth

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Monster's accuse by LupusTheCanine, literature

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Monster's accuse

You told me I would have nightmares, I have none as I never dream. You told me I would have remorse, I have none because what I did was right. You told me that I would become mad, You had failed to notice I had been before. You told me that I should have tried peace's way, I had given peace a chance before. God bless me for having back up then. You told me that I am monster, That is only thing you were right about. You told me that I should forget these horrible things I did, You couldn't understand that it is part of me. Denying it would tear me apart, would destroy me. Maybe you didn't want to understand that.

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Dec 26
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I think way too much. These poems are my way of getting all my thoughts out of my head. That cloud my head and make it hard for me to think. Though despite that fact I do my best to love all to live by these three truths: perfect love perfect faith perfect trust. I find these have never lead me astray. Nor will they you if wish to live by them.
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kallia-goldenwings

May 11, 2017

Eight Years

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  OMG 8 years I sorta cant believe it Time can fly when your not watching. I find my self in a bind lately. One where I wonder why should sex matter when helping another person. I 'm back in school working on my Doctoral in applied clinical psychology. I got myself into a sticky situation. I though I'd be able to get a loan for school to cover what the government couldn't. Then found out I was denied because of student loan I have in collections. So I 'm stuck trying to raise the money I owe myself unless I can find someone to cosign. So far the few I have asked to help have either said no because family issue. Or wanted to get in my panties

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kallia-goldenwings

Sep 26, 2016

five years

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  Has it really been five years now as long a is have been in school for now. I can't believe it but then again I say this every time a year pass. But in honest I really never thought I still be using this website or be member this long or find more to write each day. At least here it public and my real work and no one can change it but me. The problem is how long will that last. I am not sure when our words will no longer be our own. For now our words are just watched not censored but soon that may change. A lot soon than one would think we so close to that do no one realizes it yet. I have plans to graduate this semester with my master. I

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May 16, 2014

five years

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